So being a mom of very little brain, hasn't been working out for me lately. Between MOPS, a Husband, a Preschooler, a High School-er, a baby, a cat, Relay For Life, my blog, church and of course life in general, it gets a little crazy. Okay, a lot crazy! Now please forgive me, I am not a professional writer. So with that said, you will find that I jump from one topic to the other rather quickly. I have Adult ADD to thank for that! Sometimes it is a blessing and a curse. Please stick with me here.
I am so very blessed and grateful! God has given me so much to love!
To know that He is always there listening is truly the best gift of all. He listens without fail. He is there for me day or night, 24/7. I know that when things get tough, I can talk to Him, and he is listening.
So why am I putting this out there? Because for the last week or so I have been struggling, a lot. I feel horrible that I am short-tempered with my children and that I haven't been so kind and loving to my husband. That my 4 year old is getting older and growing up. That my teenager is now in the mode that is, "I know it all, and my parents are so dumb."
I know that no one is perfect, yet I still strive to be. Yet, I am learning more and more each day. Not only from my family and friends, but also from God. You see, I just recently decided that I need to become a better wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend and follower. I have always believed in God. Although, I don't know anything about the Bible. Well, that was until I ran across a few blogs. I don't even remember how it happened, but I do believe that God was answering my prayers with which way I should go spiritually.
In my quest for more knowledge of the word of God. I found the Good Morning Girls and Women Living Well. I do have to say, both of these blogs have truly impacted me spiritually! These women have taken the time to provide some really awesome resources to help us learn more about God's word. I have been both inspired and taught by these lovely women. From bible studies to webcasts, the have the most amazing ability to share God's word and they have such a fun way of doing so. I am hoping that by sharing this information with you, you will be able to join me in learning more from these women of God. I am doing my homework and am trying to take in as much information as possible! Learning something new everyday is such a gift!
Now back to my crazy life. I am struggling, immensely! I seem to be fighting more and more everyday with our oldest son. He is 15 years old and has hit teenager mode. So, being that this is my first time parenting a teenager, I am learning a lot and making tons of mistakes. My husband and I have discussed so much, but still seem to be coming up short. My Mom gives me advise as well as my Mother In Law. Needless to say, when my Mom tells me something I tend to go straight to "Where was this when I was growing up? Oh yeah! She had me as a defiant daughter, gezz I was a pain." I by no means sugarcoat it when I say I was a pain! I stayed out late, defied my parents, lied, stole, cheated, smoked... well you get the idea. I did it, now I own it! I was probably not the worst kid in town, but pretty close. So my son has a disadvantage, me. I did the worst things and I know what to watch for! My parents were both very young when they had me, so I know it wasn't easy for them. Can you imagine trying to raise a teenager, when you were a teenager just not so long ago? So what to do? Take in as much advice as possible! After all my parents raised me to be honest, and to listen to them. I was the one that was the problem. My Mom gives me some pretty good advise! Now when my Mother In Law gives me advice, for some reason I am a willing listener. She has three wonderful boys and I was lucky enough to marry one of them. My husband is how I want our boys to be.
How do I go about achieving that? I am finding my answers through God, yet I am still struggling to apply them. I know that some day it will all click and fit into place, still knowing that I have to go through the journey of parenting a teenager. I also know that I can't mess with God's plan. Like they say, "If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans". I pray that things will get better and am optimistic! The plus side to all of this? With each child I am learning how to be a better parent, but only by the grace of God!
To my parents, thank you! You have been great teachers and I know now how much of a pain I really was. I am so sorry!
Crystal
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